I'm so sad

I don't know how to descripe my feeing right now.
Yes, i admit is my wrong to hav check on ur phone. To my horrific i saw u call her more than 5 times. the 1st 4 time was aborted , i guess it was because she didn't pick up the phone. N finally u get through, the whole conversation took 1.11 mins.
y i bother so much since it was only a 1.11 mins phone call?

the call time was 7.18pm, i guess u just reach hotel n u dun bother to giv me a call but instead u call her. yeah...i was nobody, i shouldn;t be bother at least u giv me a call at the end . but can i dun bother like nothing happen? no! because u r my husband! My husband call the other women the 1st thing he landed n not his wife. I'm sad. i dunno r u the 1 i know. u hav been so decent since we know each other, ur fren r all male (at least those i knew) n i hav not heard u went any gathering that involve girls n guys. All these while all guys. I start to wonder r u hidding something from me....i terrible sad now....

Luv it to Bitt!

This is my bought at Milan. I really luv it to bits!

Not because it was a Gucci but also a present from my dear for my bday and velentine.

I keep everything, the paperbag and of course the dust bag. But i'm not a very caring person. Ever since i used the bag i hav never put it into dust bag. :p

I hope it can still at least last more than 5 years.

how nice !

silence of the night

It has been weeks since i saw the cards. It is no big deals to many ppls eyes though. But somehow all the sentence were still in my mind, it haunted me time to time.

Perhaps I'm very much in luv with u to the extent i cann't get myself to believe u r treating other girls much much more better than me? Sound paranoid? Thats me, a typical sensitive, insecure and lack of confidence girl.

Perhaps i'm too clingy on u that i forgot how my life was b4 knowing u. I got over sensitive on ur act and talk to me. Even a simple remark can lead me to certain degree of depress without ur knowledge.

I guess is time for me to start to learn back the life b4 i knew u.. to learn to be independent again...

I really wish i can be as 'bo chap' as u. =)

I really wonder how my life gonna be in future.
I'm so envy when I knew my fren happily accept proposal from her 7 years bf. the proposal was just fantastic. I believe no girl will say no in her case.They gotta hav their wedding in next year. I so envy when she told me how they going to hav their wedding. Both of them start the plan.

Why i'm so envy? I gotta hav mine next month. Yet i dun feel happy. Why? I felt that the event was solely on my own. He got no any concern about the wedding. I plan n execute. He will only follow when he is happy. When he is not happy then i gotta wait till he happy. why i put myself in such fucking hell situation. I could hav say 'no' in the very early stage. I lead myself to such fucking situation n i HATE it.

I really hate myself to agree on the marriage. Is not that i dun luv him. I just felt he is that the guy suitale for a marriage life. I cann't felt the luv. Not even a single drop of luv. why? why is me? why i gotta lead this kind of life? what can i do? Say no n sign on sepration? i can do that but what will my family think n what will other ppl think of my family?

奠祭我最后的信念

我一次又一次相信你。你一次又一次欺骗我。我的心就像被捅了一下。我已经彻底的对你绝望了。我不会再写。今天会是我最后一篇文章，奠祭我最后的信念。。。。。。。。。。

担心

我不是一直都很期待和你见面吗？为什么现在我却这么担心。我好害怕我会临阵逃脱。你也说我会临时改变主意。那该怎么办呢？

我和月亮的秘密

吉米说有些失去注定的，有些缘分是永远没有结果的。也许命中注定我们一生中要走许多不该走的路，要爱许多不该爱的人，要做一些不该做的事。不管怎样，最终的结局还是一样。那我们又何必伤心呢？那也只不过是人生必经之路吧？

我和你真的注定没结果吗？一想到这里，又是一阵撕心裂肺的痛。埋在心里的刺拔不出来，一不小心又把自己扎得伤痕累累。因为你我已经片体鳞伤了。

曾经想也许我从来不是自己想象中的那么爱你。但那又怎样？不管我是不是想象中的爱你，我还是忘不了你。

看着皎洁的月亮，轻轻的诉说我对你的思念。这也就只有我和月亮知道了。